Talks and Seasons

Talks:
Okay, so has anyone ever had the feeling that someone wanted to say something to them? Like something specific? And have you ever been so apprehensive about what they might say that you...oooh, I don't know, made sure they never got the point? Yeah, I did that today. Yeah...pretty much feel like that was stupid, but I have so much noise and tangled wire and twine in my head that I have to sort out before anyone particularly important says anything particularly important. And who knows? Maybe I was totally off base and being all anxious and apprehensive over nothing. People seem to do that a lot.

I think in general most people would rather just get all the scary/painful/anxious/embarrassing moments in their lives over with as quickly as possible. But everyone wants to be ready for them. No one wants to be caught off guard. Because somehow if you're expecting a hit it doesn't hurt so badly. Or even if you aren't expecting anything bad it always feels better somehow to be prepared. Unfortunately the fruits of this preparation is usually only anxious stalling and pained anticipation. So why do we still do it? Why is it so hard for some people to just 'go with the flow'?

Seasons:
So this isn't relevant to anything in particular, but it just occurred to me that while some people are just better people in the summer. They have less stress, less worry, they're in less of a hurry, and can invest their time more amply in friends, family, and recreation. Some people, on the other hand, are exactly the opposite. They don't enjoy the summer as much because they feel less driven, have less of a purpose, and yet are so tired of the moments when they were busy that during summer they take complete advantage of the break and completely check out of friendships, family, and anything that "feels like work".

It's not a particularly positive revelation, but when I'm managing my time well (and I have more than six hours of sleep) I generally am a better person during the school year (work season, for those of you who have vacated all educational institution and reside permanently in the workforce). I just like having a purpose and a drive. And I feel like during the school year I am better equipped to accomplish my other goals as well. I just like having stuff on my plate. During the summer I can try to put stuff on my plate, but it doesn't always work. After all, I'm on vacation, right? And so is everyone else I would involve in my schemes. Sigh . . .

I wonder if there's a productivity study on work during summer as opposed to the other three seasons?